Is it Worth to Be The Other Woman?

My marriage ends because of the third person came to our marriage.  I still wondering..do we really have to be so selfish when it comes to love? When you think you should be with the person you love are forbiden or in other words is "belongs" to someone else and are engaged with ring or law? What do you feel if that happens to her? how does she feels?

My little sister is in the position where she involved with a married guy.  She didn't want to hear what my mother and I objected.  She knew the risk..the risk of having a bad reputations in her office.  His wife were sending emails spreading my sister's affair with her husband.  Now..she have to face the consequence of playing with fire.

I mean..what is the benefit of being someone else in other's life? not much..you may have the person you love but till how long? what if you have insecure feelings that he still love his wife and miss his son/daughter? what if he wants to go back to her? what if people looking at you sinically that you are a stealer? Well that s life..

We never understand about it..just lived with it. 

My Dream House

Been critize with mom, forgotten to bring my wallet on the way to school this morning..ahh..I usually don't like to complain on such things like that, but today..I feel so sensitive. I wasn't a complainer..to me..people who likes to complain on such a small thing are just wasted of energy.

Everybody has their own problem, whether its small or complicated. But we often don't realized that our action is affecting other's. For example someone has a very bad mood in the morning, perhaps because he/she have her own stress..sometimes she/he will throwing their emotions on other people.  Like being grumpy or critizing. That emotions, can make someoneelse feeling bad also, and it will impact on their day.

Sometimes I have to remind myself that I don't have to take bad energy that someone threw on me. And trying to thing positively in a worst time or day, and just take it as a humor. If we try to blame everything with unlucky situations or not taken problems lightly..I believe that you will going through a bad day whole day.

So..today I learned to get through the small problems. Now..I have to get through my other case in my relationship and how I have to deal with it.

 

miss him so much..

Walking everyday to my son's school makes my tight and bottom firm:)  besides, it really healthy to snip the fresh air and listening to the biracds sings

wanna sleep good this afternoon..zzzzzz..

Today, Planted some green onions in my garden with a small plastic cups..we don't have big yards to have a big garden, but at least we can be creative.. I think if we are creative everything can be so good.  we can survive if we have creativity.  I like to recycle bottles, cans, anything that i can use for my plants.  I think we can help the earth start from our own environment. 

Ebook

I paid an ebook with Western Union more than a week ago but they said that they don't accept western union payment, so what about my money?? 20 dollar is not cheap for me.  I need that book..At least they should trying to serve us better..I paid..I send the receipt now I want my book!!

When you have business, you should serve your client like a king..they are your customer, they pay you..but if you ignore them they will lost interest and respect with your product.  No matter how they paid with or without credit cards, they spend their money to buy your product..and you should give it to them as soon as possible.

Make Money

Wish God giving me some extra money to start my own business..God pleaaseee..open a chance for me to be independent.  Let me taking care of myself and my son. I need to stand up on my own..I want to have my own freedom God.  To feel free from fear of poverty, uncertainty, unrespect.

I don't want to find money in a wrong way..I want to take any chance as long as its positive and honourably.

I try to get a job but i have to compete with fresh graduate.  Now I'm thinking to get a small business..but, how?

Today adding some more flower into my little secret garden..poisentias and ducklips..

Hang out at this romantic cafe near my house where the place is quiet and rustic..old village scenery..

love it!

Losing Hope

Somehow i felt losing of hope..about him..

He is getting further and further away.  I was asking myself will it be over..?

is this meaning that he is leaving me here alone?

If I am now are alone..who will be there for me?

will there be someone who wants to be with me?

the memory of us is playing now in my mind..

123Greetings.com
Just sending my favorite guy a season greeting..hope he likes it..

Don't go Changing by Barry White..his dedicated song for me..

soo deep..

I Want To Forget About You

I want to forget you..forget you..

I just want to care about myself

I want to ignore you

I think you punished me..

But..I know..this is my fault.